I AM BROKEN!
I am broken. Broken, at how many lives are being lost each day. Broken, at the number of dreams buried. Broken, at how casually leaders are living each day as though things are ok. Broken, that the influencers in our nation are caught up in matters that are not changing society for the better; as long as they are ok, it does not matter. Broken, because we seem to be missing the point of this life we have been given. Broken, because we keep saying one day we will do this or the other. Broken, because leaders are in so much pain yet are afraid of getting healing because of pride and fear of being vulnerable before another. Broken, as people tell me that I will be back, only for them to leave this world permanently! Broken, because Christ paid such a high price for our victory yet we are living as though we are defeated! My heart is broken.
I am broken. My constant desire is to work with other broken leaders so that together we can unapologetically leave a legacy by leading ourselves first and then leaving this world better than we found it. Leaders who are not ashamed to face themselves for the greater good. Leaders who are ready to put their pride aside and listen for once. Let me ask you a question, what breaks your heart? My friend, knowing what breaks your heart is also knowing what you should do with your life, and how you should be leading others.
Don’t misunderstand me. I don’t mean that I am “broken” in the sense that I am rendered useless by my imperfections. No. The opposite is actually true. I am made more useful by my brokenness, and I discovered my greatest Purpose through my pain and suffering. When I look around at the kind of leaders who are influencing the world today, my heart breaks. Where are they directing our children to? Why has everything, even moral corruption, become ok. I hear well-meaning parents saying, I will let my children do as they please as long as they are happy! When did life become about happiness and who determines this? When did lack of discipline lead to happiness? I sit down and I wonder what more I can do. This is the burden that led me and continues to inspire me to do what I do today, helping leaders know who they are, why they are here and what they can do to leave the world better than they found it.
A.W. Tozer is often credited with a quote that I truly love. It is doubtful whether God can bless a man greatly until He has hurt him deeply. Yes, yes, yes, I know what you are thinking. God loves us too much to hurt us. However, God does not hurt us the way man does. He breaks us so that He can make us. The book of Hebrews says that the Lord disciplines those He loves. If you have experienced disciplining in any form, you know that this process is not fun nor painless. We tend to think of Christianity as a painless system by which we can escape the penalty of past sins and get to heaven at last. Not so. The devil, things, and people being what they are, it is necessary for God to use the hammer, the file, and the furnace to cleanse us.
My friend, great leadership doesn’t start with a great education, although that is incredibly valuable. It certainly also does not start with a particular position within an organization. Great leadership often starts with a broken heart. Drive, determination, and productivity are valuable. Talent and charisma are great assets for leaders to possess not to forget the vital role relationships play in the path to success. However, the truth is none of those things are as powerful as a heart, broken before God and broken over the condition of something and burdened to fix it and make it better.
Many people ask me, why would God allow this or the other to happen? If He is such a good God, why then is there so much suffering and pain. The answer my friend has nothing to do with God but everything to do with us. Our sin separates us from God and because of this we feel as though God does not care. Sin and God cannot co-exist. Additionally, you must believe that all things work together for good. ALL THINGS! Even the death of a loved one; it all works together for good. The reason we never see the good is because we are so focused on the issue/pain instead of being focused on God. So it isn’t true that God causes evil to come into our lives for no purpose. Rather, it is that he uses the suffering we endure for our good, to prepare and shape our character so that we’re up to the task of leadership. Leadership is a painful and lonely journey and unless you are well prepared for it, I assure you, it will break you. As a leader, you will suffer weakness, not if, but when and if you have Christ in you, you will experience His strength, learn the lessons and be able to keep moving forward.
My friends, the world’s greatest influencers aren’t merely rich and famous. Those who have the most impact on any generation are leaders acquainted with suffering; who own their brokenness.
I have a long way to go and a lot to learn. I am on a journey and I have made significant progress by the Grace of God. I came to the understanding a long time ago that it isn’t my strength that brings success or influence. It is actually God’s strength, made perfect in my weaknesses that can profoundly affect the leaders and the world around me.
To any leader reading this, my greatest encouragement to you is to embrace your pain. Own your brokenness. There is no shame nor condemnation. And reach out to us. Come crawling, exhausted, beaten down but come. This is a safe haven where you can unburden without any judgment. Don’t remain silent any longer. You have so much to offer the world, you just don’t know it or see it. You can make things right and rise up again and leave a legacy for your children and the world at large.
Victory comes after our momentary defeats, and though crying lasts through the night, joy comes in the morning.